She

by Ayusha Dzhabrailova

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She’s my 3am thoughts

And so what

If she leaves me

No time to dream?

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She’s etched her name

Into my skull

So that I can

Never forget her

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Yet she’s dancing away

Like a fleeting memory 

That I try chasing

To remember

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So that she’s never

Lost to me

In this whirling,

Tangled mess

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She’s the one that

Makes me dazed,

Spinning in my head

Constantly

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And she’s throwing

Her wrench in my works, 

Making my circuits 

Whir and combust

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But she’s the one

Who builds me back up,

Stitching me together

Piece by piece

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She’s the one

Who repairs my 

Cracks and bruises

With her perfect touch

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And she’s the one

That’s carved 

It all

Into my chest

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She’s never going to be

Just another somebody,

And she’s never going to be

Someone I want to forget